The Meanderings of this Mommy: December 2012

So, life with two kids. Woah!! It is harder than I thought it would be, but easier too. It is hard to explain.

First off, I hate Nursing. It hurts!!! And I now am being treated for Mastitis (an infection in a milk duct) and I get blocked ducts all the time. Seriously. I mean, I guess it could be worse, but, for reals. Can't I just have a little easier time? Please??

Second of all, I do believe I have postpartum depression (ppd) again. With my first baby (Jenni, obviously) I wanted to run away all the time. I didn't want to be around her at all, and so I just always wanted to leave the house, with or without her. It was a bad syndrome of "the grass is greener" because I wanted to have a baby so bad before I had one, and then after she was here, all I wanted to do was give her back. Hormones, eh? This time though, there have been lots of tears (mostly about nursing) and I DON'T want to leave the house. I have no problem with people coming here, but for me to leave the house is such a hassle, I would rather cancel all my plans and stay home. Home is where I am comfortable. This is not normal for me. So... that being said, there are different symptoms, but I think that I am going to have to up my meds before Sean goes back to work or I am going to have a very hard time with adjusting to life. And, of course, it just gets worse when I am tired... and when your baby is up 2-3 times in the night, that is how you live... tired! So... here's to hoping!

BUT, it is easier than I thought too. The biggest hurdle I thought I was going to have to jump was Jenni adjusting to her new baby sister. This was not a hurdle at all, but more of a piece of string to jump over. Jenni LOVES her baby sister. She gets excited about seeing Maria in the morning, and she loves being mommy's big helper. We have a chair by the change table so I Jenni can get up on there by herself (no lifting for mommy), and she loves to help change the diapers. She is our little scrub nurse. "Wipe, Diaper, Cream". She is so helpful! She also likes to bring me fresh "boobie pads" and my "boobie cream". So, other than the fact that Jenni is 2 and likes to do things her way every now and again, Jenni is a lot less work to deal with than I thought she was going to be.

Now, I figure, most of you reading my posts are going to want to see pictures of these two beautiful little girls... so here you go. Pictures! Enjoy!